I am Willing

I have been sitting with this idea, and I do not know yet how deeply the Lord wants me to dig into it. Maybe it will become a Bible study one day. Maybe it is something He is simply letting settle in my heart for now.

But for some reason, I keep hearing:

"I am willing".

And I love that because we actually see Jesus say this in Scripture.

In Matthew 8:2–3, a leper comes to Jesus and says, “Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.”

And Jesus does not hesitate.

He reaches out His hand, touches him, and says:

“I am willing; be cleansed.”

That part has been stirring in me.

The man did not question whether Jesus was able. He said, “You can.” The question was not about power. It was about willingness.

And Jesus reveals His heart before He reveals the miracle.

I am willing.

Willing to come close.

Willing to touch what others avoided.

Willing to cleanse what others rejected.

Willing to respond with compassion.

And I think that is the part I cannot shake.

Because as I look to Jesus as the One I desire to follow, reflect, and become more like, I keep finding myself in this space of saying:

I am willing.

I am willing to show up.

I am willing to be stretched.

I am willing to go the extra mile.

I am willing to give.

I am willing to serve.

I am willing to be inconvenienced.

I am willing to be corrected.

I am willing to obey.

And honestly, I am still learning what that really means.

Because willingness is not the same as striving. It is not saying yes to everything just to prove something. It is not overextending myself so I can feel needed. It is not carrying what God never asked me to carry.

That is where I have to be honest.

Sometimes my “I am willing” needs discernment.

Jesus was willing, but He was not driven by people-pleasing. He was moved by compassion, led by the Father, and obedient to the will of God.

That matters.

Because biblical willingness is not about being available to everybody’s expectations. It is about being surrendered to God.

Jesus said in John 5:19 that the Son can do nothing of Himself, but only what He sees the Father do. Even Jesus, in His earthly ministry, modeled perfect surrender to the Father’s will.

So when I say, “I am willing,” I do not want it to come from pressure, guilt, fear, or performance.

I want it to come from surrender.

Lord, I am willing to go where You send me.

I am willing to serve who You place in front of me.

I am willing to be stretched where You are growing me.

I am willing to give where You are asking me to give.

I am willing to be cleansed in the places I still need Your touch.

Because maybe that is part of this too.

Before I can live from a place of “I am willing,” I have to receive the heart of the One who first said it.

Jesus was willing toward me first.

Willing to save.

Willing to cleanse.

Willing to restore.

Willing to come near.

Willing to lay down His life.

So maybe this is not just a call to become more willing.

Maybe it is also an invitation to trust His willingness.

To trust that He is not reluctant in His mercy.

To trust that He is not distant in His compassion.

To trust that He is not annoyed by our need.

To trust that when we come to Him honestly, He is still able and He is still willing.

I do not know all the depths of this yet.

But I know this:

I want a heart that looks more like Jesus.

Not rushed.

Not performative.

Not resentful.

Not stretched by everything and everyone.

But surrendered.

Willing where God is leading.

Willing where love is required.

Willing where obedience is costly.

Willing where compassion moves me.

Willing where the Father says go.

And maybe for now, that is the prayer:

Lord, make me willing.

Not just willing to do more, but willing to become more like You.

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